New Semester

Okay... new semester.
1. Physics. Boring. Going to hate it. We have to do a lot of computerized homework, and I don't like that. I'm a big fan of paper note-taking, listening to lectures, and actively discussing in class. Not a fan of testing myself through a screen that has no idea what I'm thinking.
2. Band, Choir, and Freestyle are pretty much the same.
3. CIS American Literature. I don't think I'm going to like my teacher... not compared to my comp teacher, who was very laid back and understanding. This guy seems tough... and hard to read. But the class itself seems very interesting. We read a lot of books and analyze them... lots of notes taken. Yay!! So yeah... Literature is still up in the air for me.
4. Economics. My teacher in this class seems pretty nice. And it seems like the class will challenge me enough. The only problem is I really miss my government class!! There's someone in that class *hint hint* that I really won't get to see very much now that I've moved out, and that makes me upset. Plus I got used to government. Very used to it.
5. The Athlete is in my Calculus class!! So excited!!! I have a few friends who know about my infatuation with him, and they almost planned it out so that we'd sit next to each other... They keep on dropping hints about it, though. And I get embarrassed. Plus I still get to keep the most amazing teacher ever for calculus. And it turns out that I got the highest final score in my class last semester. Which is absolutely great!! I almost thought my teacher was joking when he told me, but I really did get only three wrong.
So... even though I'm a little depressed about government, the Athlete and my high final grade in Calculus makes everything else worthwhile. Now I have something to look forward to every day!!!

Secret Garden Callbacks

Once again, it was me versus another girl who has the same name as me. She did very well, but my director said she had trouble showing emotion. I, on the other hand, showed too much, apparently. I am not too confident; it's better to aim low and get higher than aim high and end up getting shot down like a bird. It's not like this hasn't happened before, either. Memories of Camelot come to mind. At this point, my director has already promised me a spot in this show, and he's also said that it is likely for me to get a bigger part, but there's always my work schedule to consider, and once again, it's not like I've ever proven myself to be better than that other girl.
But other than that, callbacks went pretty well. I feel sorry for this one guy who was like bawling because he was sent home halfway through. Then his car broke down. poor thing.
I have a really good friend who might get martha. What's funny is that she and I are kind of depending on the other to not get a part. The other "helena" was also on the ticket for martha. If she gets lily, and I don't, then my friend gets martha... which would be a blessing for her. So I guess it's not a total loss if I don't get the part I want. Whatever. I don't want to think about it until the cast list comes up. I don't know when that's going to be...

Three-Day Weekend

So I found out yesterday that I am playing the part of Jessica in this Variety show my music teacher created. I have to sing a Britney Spears song, "Dear Diary." I don't quite know what to think about it. It's a pretty big honor to be given this role... but there were other songs/roles I wanted that I probably won't get now. I have to play an eighth-grade girl who's obsessed with boys and talks like a ditz... that's not me at all. But I guess that's what acting is. It's making yourself into someone else. It's not being someone else. It's becoming someone else. Like that person is you. I don't know. But still, I guess it's a pretty good deal for me.
Secret Garden auditions are tomorrow. I'm really excited. I talked to my director about my work schedule and such, and it turns out that he is really considering me for a big part this year. I hope it's Lily!!! She's not the main character, but a pretty important one with some really pretty songs. I'm very prepared for the audition. I guess I'll see what happens.
My parents are in Puerto Rico this week... which means I'm pretty much the rule of the roost around here for a time. Yeah, there's my grandma too, but she just sleeps all day. I'm in for a big week...

Finals...

Finals weren't bad at all this year.
Why? Well, I actually studied.
My experience this year with finals has taught me a few things:
1. Take notes. Lots of em. Even things you think you'll remember. Write as much as possible... particularly when your prof is giving a lecture about something. It's bound to be on tests...
2. Actually read your notes. Highlight the most important stuff. Then read through them again, except this time only the highlighted parts.
3.When studying for comprehensive finals, look for the big stuff. Major equations, main ideas, broad definitions.
4. Don't do facebook, talk to people, or anything when studying. Music should be playing quietly in the background. The television should be off. You need a place you can focus so things can sink in.
5. Cramming is helpful, but it's good to prepare early for this kind of stuff. A week before the final, start reading over stuff.
6. Finals are usually not as hard as they sound. You'll be surprised at how much your brain can recall.

Don't Ask.

You're not supposed to have any idea what this is about... deal with it.

I don't know what to think.
I'm shaking.
Why am I shaking?
I feel sick.
I am sick.
I think my mind is sick...
Pleasant...
Strange.
So, so strange...
My cheek feels something that's not there...
Golden
Please don't laugh
Because that's the one thing I wish you wouldn't do.
I can't think straight.
Can't fill in simple bubbles...
Caught offguard
By feelings
I shouldn't... couldn't...
feel.
But here I am welcoming them.
What's wrong with me?

I got a new Ipod for Christmas, and it is excellent. It's orange, but when I put a black sheath over it it looks really cool... sort of halloweeny. It's so thin. I'm surprised that something that tiny can hold two thousand songs... twice as much as my older, thicker ipod could hold. And the picture is so big, i can see the whole cd cover in it. It's very nice. My music just sounds that much cooler when it plays on this thing. And then I got a dock for it as well... subwoofer speakers with a remote that has a MUTE BUTTON!! yaya. that means no swear words. The dock's also got a cd player and plays the radio as well. the only thing it doesn't have is a tape deck, but that's fine. So yeah, those are my new toys for this christmas.

Thaddeus leaves on tuesday. he texted me at six thirty today to ask if I was back in town and if I wanted to go to ruby tuesdays. I couldn't because I have to work on this ridiculous government paper that I hate. ugh. But after I get some thoughts down, I'll close for the night and work on it tomorrow. yes. and then I'll double-check it monday before I turn it in. Noice.

I feel much more ready for school, for some reason, even though I still don't have orinoco done and i haven't written in my journal in a month and I have variety show, secret garden auditions, and work comin' up. yikes. but i'll muddle through, I guess.

This has been a ridiculously stupid post. But it was worth getting some thoughts down. Maybe I should be actually writing in my other journal.